I and me, the universe and you.

A fire burns
Water comes
You cool me down
When I’m cold inside
You are warm and bright
You know you are so good for me

With your child’s eyes
You are more than you seem
You see into space
I see in your face
The places you’ve been
The things you have learned
They sit with you so beautifully.

You know there’s no need to hide away
You know I tell the truth
We are just the same
I can feel everything you do
Hear everything you say
Even when you’re miles away
Cos I am me, the universe and you.

Just like stars burning night
Making holes in the night
We are building bridges.

When you’re on your own
I’ll send you a sign
Just so you know
I am me, the universe and you.

 **

I don’t know how to anymore, as much as it hurts me. It really, really hurts. It hurts that I cannot make myself look you in the eye. It hurts that I have so much to say, so many chances but so little strength left in me to do so. It hurts that I cannot just pull away. It hurts that it has stopped being so easy to. It hurts to know that we never really forgive, or forget.  It hurts to remember what we used to have. It hurts, now that the anger has subsided and the pain is just crashing into my life in a matter of seconds. It hurts to silently hope that you’re hurting too. It hurts to stop and look around sometimes, hoping you might be right behind me. It hurts that you never are. It hurts to still care. It hurts knowing I’m weak = I hurt.

It hurts so much.

But you know what? The past months have been a spiral of shit that my life seems to never be able to escape. The hurt? I’m used to it.

That, hurts too.

 

Total hurt count = 19.